What's Leafin

So... it's apparent that I haven't been up here for a while. I believe this blogging site may be more of a personal journal whose entries I don't mind sharing with the world. I post what I want when I want. For the few of you who actually read this shit, good for you. Wanna cookie?

Basically, I'm goin thru a hell of a transition stage in life. Everything as far as who I am, what I like, what I want to be, where I want to be, shit like that, feel me? Tryna figure what u truly and solely believe is a bitch to go thru. I know this much - God loves me, and He puts me thru shit I don't even wanna go thru myself. But it's all for these unknown reasons that I ain't sposed to know til it's right in His time. So - what now? I hate bein here in Utah. I mean, a nigga gon be real for sec.
I love snow bunnies. Specially the ones out here - it's snow bunnies galore! But damn, I can't stand the clicks and shit! Specially within the church peoples. I get classified a lot, and ion really like it. Luckily, I found a couple real niggas out here. Akim, Nando, and Louis. Also got muh homegurl Mame from New York and muh gurl Chanel from Arizona. People who are real wit me and look out for me. I can't wait to have Octavia come out and blow dis shit up. AND my mother. Darn skippy.

About three weeks ago, my uncle Iele called me up and let a nephew know what's good wit a job offer. Drving movin vehicles an shit like that. He said he'd pay to train me, and then I'd be doin the shit on my own. It's his own company. He's made people bank in the past, so he figured he'd hook up his fam wit some offers this year. And damn, am I glad as hell he decided to extend offers to me and my mom. In fact, my dear mother is plannin to move out there to Washington state, where my uncle resides, and live there near him. She's gon visitin here and Portland, Oregon in like late May or sumin. Then she'll be out there by June sometime. My uncle said it'd be good for me to come move out there - he'd have a whip I could buy and err thing. But my mom only recently revealed to me that she was movin, so it changed up the plans a lil. And by change I meant sped up. Cause I was PRAYIN for a way to get the fuck outta here. So what a nigga gotta do? Save up money and get the fuck outta Utah! lmao The end of my struggle for cash, The end of havin to make ends meet - for a time. The end of not bein able to do shit wit anybody whenever the hell I want to. So my dear mother offered to come pick me up when she roll through, and I was like "Heck yeah!" Can't really curse wit my moms unless I'm pissed and we're both talkin shit bout somebody lol but my moms and I are like that tho.

I realize more and more everyday that I'm not like other people, except for my parents. Which ain't a bad thing at all. I should be quite successful in the future due to them, myself, and of course God. I can feel this shit stirrin inside me once again. The feelin I get when I know for certain sumin really good is comin my way. I had that feelin b4 I moved to Oregon, b4 I moved here, b4 I graduated high school. Shit can't stop me. I fall a lil bit, then I advance two steps. So I'm always advancin. I've learned a lot about oppurtunities too. Take them shits! Life ain't certain, feel me, so make the most of this shit! Too many bad shit happnin to people so when good come ur way, capitolize on that shit feel me? And no matter what, stay real wit err body and ur self. If u gotta cheat, cheat to do good. Take that one however u want it. This MY blog, I know what the fuck I'M talkin bout. Shhhhiiiiiiiiiittt. I turn 21 this May. I'ma fuckin wild out n shit. Soooo stoked! :)

Utah has taught valuable shit, however. I learned to trust God thru ANYTHING and EVERYTHING. Never take Him and Jesus and the Holy Ghost for granted. It'll destroy you if u do. Don't be fake wit people. Be ur fuckin self. I have to be Javan Drake cause I really don't know how to be Joe Cool, feel me? Also, stay on top of yo shit! Know what the hell u want outta life - at least for the present. It's important to have dreams and goals, but don't worry bout that shit all the time. Have fun while doin that shit too. A world wit no humor? Couldn't do it. But know when to be serious. Have respect for people, and you can only obtain that after you have respect for ur self. Therefore, it is wise to develop standards - immediately. Know that u gon make mistakes. You ain't Jesus, so go head and fuck up! We sposed to! God expects it lol but don't take advantage of that shit tho. DO ya best, if u make a mistake, learn from the shit. Learn from others. Don't shut people or things off without gettin to know it jus cause it's different from you. Or different from what you believe. And never ever get on others for their beliefs.

So, with that being said, I really do wonder what God has in store for me now. I've always to go to BYU Hawaii. I'll save up for that or another school where I can study and practice exercise science. Yeah, I'm gonna change it from acting to a personal trainer and physical therapist. I figure I can do more with my body than my emotions. As of now, that is lol I'm sorta hopin that I'll meet - naw, nevermind. I don't want a serious relationship any time soon. And on that note, I think I'll end this til - when the fuck ever. Dueces!!

*Jiggy F. Baby*